As you might have noticed, the inspirations for my lay-outs were my Last Song Syndromes. This one began when one of the bands I screened for a certain major concert in school performed this piece during the auditions. It began with an acapella from the lead, wherein she sang the line: Nanlalamig na ba'ng pag-ibig mo... oh woah.... Her voice wasn't that great but something tells me it was very much heartfelt, and that every note she sang from that line comes with overflowing emotions. In short, I was carried away when she sang that line, and she had to repeat it four times, so imagine how intense the feeling gets as every word goes by. Best viewed in 1024x768 resolution
Nahihirapan na ang aking isip. Nauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo. Nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa 'kin, giliw. Nalilito ako, nais kong sagipin ang ating nalulunod na pag-ibig, ngunit handa akong palayain ka. Kung ito ang iyong hiling, gaano man kasakit sa akin, ibibigay sa 'yo. Ang tanging pakiusap lang, 'wag mo akong kalimutan. Kay rami na'ng nagdaan na pagsubok sa ating pag-ibig. Kakayanin pa, kaya babawi na ang mga nasabi na masasakit na salita.
Kung ito ang iyong hiling, gaano man kasakit sa akin, ibibigay sa 'yo. Nanlalamig na ba'ng pag-ibig mo? -Hiling, Paramita.
I guess that will give you at least a hint what happened to me. ='(
Pagsubok.
Links to friends and stuff I consider entertaining.
Tapos na. Tapos na ang 3 araw ng laughter, partying and quality time with God by the time maipublish ko tong blog entry na to. Sa mga oras na ito ay may hangover pa ako sa 22 on 22 The Trilogy, and I would like to make this blog entry as personal as possible bilang pasasalamat na rin sa mga taong nakasama kong icelebrate ang birthday na ito kahit na nagsignal number 3 na sa Cavite at lumubog na ang Manila ♥
Day 1: House Party with: FL EB, Adviser and Alumni, Highschool friends, everdearest friends Yui, Jorina and Nagi. ♥
Matapos ang grueling experience ng pamamalengke, ang aking butihing lola na super sarap ang luto eh nagpatuloy sa pagluluto. Pinakaunang dumating ang highschool classmate ko na si Chris. Actually, nalulungkot ako ng araw na yon kasi feeling ko onti lang pupunta. Pero wag ka. Aiun, siksikan sila sa bahay.And I'm glad dahil open arms naman ang lola ko na winelcome ang mga bisita ko, sabi nya kasi ngayon lang daw ako naghanda sa birthday, hindi daw ako nakaexperience. Sabi ko meron naman, nung 7th birthday nga lang. haha.
Sunod sunod ng dumating ang mga bisita. Natutuwa ako sa FL EB, full force sila! ^^ Thanks for the gift, nako, may kilala akong taong maiinggit sa akin pag nakita nya yung regalo nyo. Natouch ako sa card na binigay ng bff nagi ko at ni Yui. Yung kay Yui: You save me money, 'cause you give me counseling for free! Naiyak nga ako nung dinrawing nya yung characters ng comic strip na ginagawa ko nung bored kami sa isa naming subject nung college, Jupot at Juleh. Wag nyo ng isipin kung tungkol saan o kung anong creatures ba yang dalawang yan, matatawa lang kayo pag nabasa nyo yung comic strip. I hope Yui nakatabi pa yung comics nyan, IKAW LANG ANG MAY KOPYA NYAN! Si nagi, niregaluhan ako ng... USB! But wait there's more. Identical sila nung USB na binili ko noon. Soooo... hindi lang tayo sa damit nagkakawavelength! We are soooo bestfriends.
I also got a phone call from semiboylet. At dumating si Sir Uly, FL Alumni rin na may dalang ice cream! Wow, terno sila ng cake na binili ko, fave flavor ko pa MOCHA! Hahaha, pero dahil gabi na at malakas ulan, naunang umuwi ang FL EB, at ahil jan, alumni lang ang nagenjoy ng ice cream! Nanood pa kami ng bubble gang, MTV, at umikot ang usapan namin sa Advil, cocaine, anime, computer virus, lahat ng kweirduhan ni Hazel! Hahaha! Iba talaga ang samahan ng FL, lalo na ng FL Alumni. Andami na naming napagdaanan sa minamahal naming org, at nabuo rin ang friendship for keeps na to. ♥
Day 1 ended. I thought it was great, but day 2 was... Awesome!
Day 2: Lokopo sa Yakiboori, then Pazzo Bar. NABINYAGAN AKO!
Sinundo ako ni Kuya Pat aka Tito Beni aka Papi sa bahay namin. I was wearing a white strapless dress with black stripes in front, underneath was a black tank top, black stockings and white shoes with black accents. Tigas ng mukha ko kahit mataba ako, nagganon ako. Anyways carry naman. Pero hindi nakikisama ang panahon dahil nagsignal number one sa Cavite, naging 2, at 8.30 na kami nakarating sa venue. Everyone was waiting. Sorry guys. Pero eto masasabi ko, at shameless plugging na rin: YAKIBOORI RUINED MY DIET! Ang sarap ng tomato rice, java rice, spicy beef curry rice! Busog kaming lahat. My choice of dish: Beef teriyaki - a little Japanese hint!; Bicol express - dahil may onting Bicolana blood ako, Tuna steak - dahil I looooove Tuna. Kare-kare - Pinoy eh; Sweet and Sour Pork Barbecue na feeling ko onti lang natikman ko! haha. At panalo ang dessert. Nick, sana next year mejo ma-extend na ang venue, more people should have the Yakiboori experience! Sarap!
Akala ko boring ang gabing to dahil kainan lang naman talaga ang plano ko. Pero nag-aya ako ng kape, at alak ang ininom! x__x dumerecho kami sa Blue Wave, pumunta ng Pazzo Bar and we partied hard! tama, the rain may be hard, but we partied harder! Feeling ko nagdebut ako dahil first time kong magpunta sa disco bar at aiun. Haha. Si Bitoy pinainom na naman ako ng inuming delayed reaction ang tama, kamikaze. x__x But I'm glad hindi sya na-OP sa mga kaibigan ko, you rock!
Matapos ang picturean, inuman, sayawan (at hindi lang kami kami, may point na may umepal sa table namin at sinayawan si Gerald, tapos si Cielo naman sa dancefloor, at ako, ehem.),umambay na kami sa chowking. Dahil almost 4 na at walang matinong byahe pa-Cavite. Maya maya pa, nauna na sina Cielo, Arnel, Grace at Laurice.
Last men standing: Ako, Bitoy, Kuya Pat, Gerald, Nick, Dk at Mike. Habang lumilipas ang bawat minuto, palakas ng palakas ang hangin! Akala ko nga liliparin na yung Petron na katapat namin. Haha, syempre walang katapusang kwentuhan at tawanan na naman, salamat kay Adonis ng Meycauayan. (si Adonis ang alter ego ni Dk). Pinag-usapan namin ang mga anyong lupa, pagiging emo, lovelife, strategy kung paano makakauwi ng ligtas, at lahat ng to nangyayari habang si Bitoy ay taob na. haha. Napala! ^^
napagdecisyunan naming sugurin ang ulan, este bagyo. So bumaliktad lahat ng payong namin, basang basa sa ulan, pero picture picture pa rin at laughtrip, pero walang picture dahil wala kaming waterproof na camera. Si Papi ang kasabay ko hanggang pauwi.
Pagod, puyat at basa ang lahat. Pero i hope lahat MASAYA!
Umaga na ako nakauwi. Mejo humina na ang bagyo, at nakapagsimba ako. Guilty na guilty ako sa lahat ng kamunduhang nangyari sa bar, pero nagsimba pa rin ako. Ang nakakatuwa keh Lord, hinandugan nya ako ng isang awit, Your Love by Lakewood.
Your love, I could never measure. Your love, ever enduring. Your love, it's more than I imagine. Nothing can separate me from Your love. -Lakewood
When the music team started playing this song, bigla na lang akong naiyak. Kaya ako naiyak kasi I felt like I was coming of age, parang teenager na hinarap sa akin ni Lord lahat ng di magagandang nangyari sa akin at kung paano ako binago ng bawat "dagok" na dumaan sa buhay ko. And I'm glad I found Him before I lost everything. Noon, akala ko katapusan na ng mundo nung niloko ako at nagbreak kami ng boyfriend ko, but I know God has someone better in store for me.
And in case you didn't know, lovelife ang birthday wish ko for the past 2 years. ^^
Thanks sa lahat ng kasama ko all these years. I really appreciated you being there for me sa lahat lahat, kababawan, tawanan, kalokohan, ka-emohan.
Mahal na mahal ko kayo!
Nalilito ako 22/06/08 3:55 PM
Afterlife of College Life Part 1
*****revised*****
I'm leaving ebloggy, I guess. Found a better lair:
First up, Danny Noriega says goodbye to American Idol this season. Yep, despite his sexy rendition of Tainted Love, he lost to Checkizee (and I bet the spelling ain't correct, so cut it)
Too bad, I believe he really prepared himself vocally for this season. And yes, if you're wondering why I am having this sentiment, that is because I LIKE HIM. And just because he's uber-effeminate-yet-sizzling-hot makes him gay. So what if he can wiggle his hips when he performed tainted love?
Once I ran to you, now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I GIVE YOU ALL A BOY COULD GIVE YOU
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
I also saw how Danny and Ramielle are very tight with each other, which makes me wonder, is he a Filipino as well? Because when two pinoys found theirselves in a different place, they just bond like they've been friends forever.
Speaking of being Pinoy, kanina, i had to go back to the municipal hall of our town, para ulitin ang cedula. rumors are irereject daw sa BIR pag mali yung finile mo. I don't really want to go all that hassle, so nakapila na naman ako kanina. This time around, the eternal question was asked again: CHINESE KA BA? I said no, it's only a joke and all that, dahil I don't want a big fuss about my chinese blood, we're not even the typical chinese family and not raised that way as well.
Kahapon, nakapagsimba uli ako kasi wala na naman akong pasok yesterday dahil aircon shut down sa PB Com tower. Great. I really miss attending our Sunday service. And then I saw a great thing sa weekly newsletter namin: looking for a GUIDANCE COUNSELOR.
So let's weigh the situation
**the pros of working as a Guidance Counselor and saying goodbye to the call center industry**
+ i get to do whatI really want to do, heck kaya nga psychology ang kinuha ko, i ain't up for hr stuff, counselor ito neng =)
+ makakapagministry na uli ako
+ available na ako pag weekends at holidays, so makakasama ko na ang small group ko pag sundays
+ close to home. so hindi na ako mahohomesick
**the cons naman
+ goodbye mcmuffin and sundaes every morning
+ goodbye starbucks
+ goodbye obsession with bags and flat shoes
+ less gimik dahil less sweldo.
basically, malaki-laking adjustment to dahil i started off with quite a hefty amount of salary tapos magiging cavite rate ako if i chose this job. And I'm seeing this opening as a very opportunity. I know God is telling me something, dahil sakto one year na ako sa current employer ko by may 18, so pwede na ako magresign by april 18. For sure start ng work dito sa guidance counselor thingy would be by june, pero I dunno what it is. Especially may nababalitaan pa ako na there is this call center na same basic pay as what I'm getting, pero morning job at sabi nga nila, may life ka daw dahil weekends ang off.
I think it's a very great deal. Pero bahala na. Pag hindi ako natanggap sa guidance counselor thingy, i'm opting the call center industry again.
I still can't get over the fact that Danny Noriega got the boot last week.
Nalilito ako 10/03/08 2:13 AM
Blast from the past and a stinging sensation
Yesterday, we held FL's victory party (and in case you dunno why, read "My Sweetest Downfall" entry) and I took charge of the pizza =)) as always. Pag ganitong mga hapi hapi, expect at least a box of pizza from me. Ang aming everdearest adviser, si Mam Rhods, sagot ang graham, and can i say Y-U-M-M-E-H! The next get together I attended was with my CSO/LokoPo family.
I decided to hold this victory party as a way of expressing my gratitude to the current president and the officers, and also for me to meet the incoming eb. And I must say, these are a bunch of great people.
And while I'm waiting for the pics to upload (at gerald wag kang magtatampo dahil wala tayong picture nina papi..) Here are the nitty gritty details.
Event 1: FL Victory Party. Meeting time, 5.30. Pero dahil pahirapan ang pagwiwithdraw sa nearest ATM sa Waltermart, dahil sa Pizza Hut ako bibili, eh 6.30 na nakapagsimula ang party.. And get this, ang alumni, may kanya kanyang bili ng softdrinks. So bumabaha ng softdrinks kahapon. =)) O di ba. nagsalo salo kami sa pizza, graham, blockbuster chocolate at tempura! Salamat sa mga sponsors! Good thing dahil nobody was left out although talagang drained ang aming current president na si Garet. Nameet ko na rin ang incoming president, and I'm glad to see a familiar face kasi scholar din sya like me.
At eto naman ang mga presidente ng FL beginning from the Golden Ages 'til incoming:
Yung first two photos, IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER YAN, so me, then my successor DK, then ang champion na si Garet, at si Angel Evaporada! =)) Grabe, LOLA NA AKO SA TUHOD NG MGA BATANG TO! At before the party ended, we all agreed to our next bonding, SWIMMING SA BDAY NI MAM RHODS =)) More Power to FL, payapa na ang puso kong may dugong FL na tuloy tuloy na ang pagshine org na ito. =)) (crap, I am totally lost for words, sorry)
Event 2: CSO/LokoPo Pizza Movement
As always opening prayer c/o future brother Mike: DK, HINDI IKAW ANG PINIPIKTYURAN!! SI MIKE po yung nasa likod =)
O ayan si Mike, taken sa aming office =))
I was on a table wherein I was sitting with the incoming CSO EB, and again, I'm glad to see a familiar face, dahil iniisip ko, when the next school year starts, may babalikan pa kayo ako sa aking alma mater? Everybody loves a good company!
yan po ang incoming cso eb.
eto naman ang outgoing cso eb and some of the rsos as well, to be short, LOKOPO FAMILY. Announcement to my Loko Po Family: Ang next activity natin ay SPLASH: Swimming Para Lokopo Active Saka Healthy!
Anyways, I wasn't supposed to go online today kasi dapat natutulog na ako sa mga oras na ito. Pero dahil dumaan ako sa munisipyo para kumuha ng sedula eh i decided to post the pics I am dying to post today.
Nung kumukuha ako ng sedula, I decided to lie about my income, Wala lang, grabe managa ang mga government offices. So I told the clerk, pano po pag walang income? And in a very cold way he said: Eh di wala. Wag mong lagyan.
Tapos yung mama sa likod ko, pinaalis na ako sa pila nung pagkatapos ko magfillout ng form sabay sabi: umalis ka na jan, wla ka na ngang trabaho eh.Define rude di ba.Pasalamat sya di ko nakuha full name nya kundi laman na sya ng internet ngayon. Grabe ka manong, HINDI LAHAT NG WALANG TRABAHO EH KAILANGANG MAGTRABAHO. Nababadtrip ako kasi di ko man lang naipagtanggol ang sarili ko nung mga oras na yon. But then I remembered yung topic sa devotion namin nung tuesday about wisdom, sabi dun: IF YOU ARE WISE, YOU WON'T ANTAGONIZE ANGER. So manong, pasalamat ka may gabay ako ni Lord sa araw araw. At masunurin akong bata.
And I don't get the idea why these governement employees are really rude, I feel that masaya maging government employee kasi in a way involved ka sa mga magagandang programa nila. I believe that hindi lang corruption ang meron sa government, but the officials are doing their best to get the community involved. Nasaksihan ko yan nung term pa ni Barzaga dito sa Dasma. And to be honest, nitong term lang ni Arroyo ko nasasaksihan na kumikilos din ang ibang officials from various places.
Nah, don't get me wrong. I am not pro-Arroyo, BUT I AM DEFINITELY NOT anti-Arroyo. I think she did a great job of handling this country. Kaya sa mga bumabatikos sa kanya, keep in mind that hindi lang sya presidente ng Pinas pero babae rin syang may puso at taong may damdamin. At tulad nating lahat, hindi rin sya marunong makuntento at may hinaing din.
Bow. =))
Nalilito ako 06/03/08 2:33 AM
A butterfly resigns, a mafia leader takes over.
I just bought myself a new phone, ang matagal ko ng inaasam na cybershot, k800i. Yun lang, ang hindi ko alam sa gprs setup ng globe ay bakit hindi nila narerecognize ang model na to when i tried to download the settings ng makapagmms na.
9K, no memory card, pero 64 mb internal memory. 3.2 megapixel, which is way better compared sa nanaka kong phone. I also found out during my phone shopping that my new phone, my stolen phone and my former dream phone (music express) all cost the same!
Being a nokia user for years, I find it hard to navigate the phone the first time around. But I'm getting used to it. What I am pissed off about is the fact that due to general cleaning my mom did to my room, I lost the list I had for the best song titles I loved all my life. Sheez.
Anyways, Nagi and I went to Moa and bininyagan namin ang phone ko nito (image heavy po):
Nagi's kreme-y moment
my first bite at Hershey's Cookies and Cream doughnut.
Fangirling with the Heroes comics found at National Bookstore: SAVE THE CHEERLEADER, SAVE THE WORLD
The first shot.
Pretty yet Hungry: our first bite
After the mall, I went to work. Great, so what can you expect, wala akong tulog ng umaga, and tuloy tuloy na hanggang sa shift ko which ends at 7am. It was a weird feeling dahil halfday lang si Marc (the butterfly who resigned), and she did say goodbye to me, and I dunno how to react to be honest. Bittersweet na lang to be safe. Then we had our first meeting with our temporary supervisor, the mafia leader looking Arjun. I think he's nice, and I told him my concern about the vacation leave I filed para makasama sa camp this year. I hope he does work on it.
Mamomotivate pa ba akong magstay sa company? Lumakas bumenta?
Right now what's on my mind eh yung sinasabi ni nagi sa kin na licensure of some sort sa Guidance and Counselling field. heck yeah, I sure am taking it. kaya ngayon ipon muna uli ako (malamang, that phone costs a huge part of my ssavings, then there would be review classes I bet, and I'll take the exam. Ayoko talaga sa hr world.
Nuff said. My wavemates are resigning, and so is everyone else. Iba na ang environment ngayon sa office. Lahat naghihintayan na lang magexpire yung bond. Even supervisors are resigning.
It's all crap, but I am seeing the light in each day.
This, too, shall pass.
Nalilito ako 05/03/08 6:27 AM
Robbed.8 Months of great memories and music.
Before anything else, may nakalimutan pala akong i-greet nung "sweetest downfall"moment, ang anak namin ni Arnel na si Jerry Digo.OO mga kapuso,anak namin ni Arnel yan =)) he won CSO Officer of the Year! O di ba.=)) successor namin ni Arnel yan, kaya grabe na lang ang tuwa namin nung tinawag name nya. Standing ovation pa.
Anyways, my phone was robbed last night, "putok pantog" gang, what i call it. Thing is yung guy nagpapanggap na naiihi at atat na bumaba ng bus, ginitgitan ako, voila, goodbye N70ME. Goodbye 8 months of great memories and music. Buti na lang naiupload ko sa multiply. Ang prob eh yung mga reminders ko dun, birthdays ng friends and all that.
If you still consider me your friend, kindly forward your phone number and your bday to this temporary phone number:
09226434119, LALO NA YUNG MGA NAKUHA KO LANG YUNG PHONE NUMBER WITHIN THE PAST 3 MONTHS.
I'll get a globe number by tomorrow, thanks to my bestfriend Nagi who will accompany me, despite her hectic schedule.
I'm still crying up to now. Late ka na nga sa work, nadukutan ka pa, at dahil sa rally, naglakad ako papuntang office.
Great.
I'm considering getting a new phone anyways.Pero sana yung nandukot gamitin sa mabuti yung makukuha nyang pera out of my phone.
Nalilito ako 01/03/08 9:48 AM
My sweetest downfall.
yesterday, i met up with jackeke, a friend whom i met online through my dlsud forums. nanood kami ng meeting de avance, a very disturbing event i should say, and natawa na lang kami dahil hanggang ngayon... PASSIVITY PA RIN ANG PROBLEMA NG MGA STUDENT LEADERS NGAYON!
So yesterday, hindi ko alam kung anong meron but I really feel the need to attend this years student awards, aka LUNTIANG PARANGAL. Then it hit me that FL is nominated for the third time, and for more than 5 years in existence, sa term ko nagsimula ang "golden ages", sabi nga nila, at tuloy tuloy na after ko.
Finally, after 2 years of tears, FRIENDS OF THE LIBRARY WINS BEST INTEREST ORGANIZATION OF THE YEAR. Grabe talaga ang iyak ko, although siguro it would have been different kung ako mismo ang aakyat para kumuha ng plaque. Pero grabe, I realized all my efforts, and Dk's efforts during our respective terms really paid off. Antagal ko talagang hinintay. Too bad, wala ang alumni, at adviser namin.
Hanggang ngayon meh hangover pa rin ako sa panalong to. Ang org ipinasubong pamunuan ko, ibinangon despite the odds, sacrificed a lot, eto na. X__X the fruits of our labor. Thank you sa lahat ng naging member ng FL, at lahat ng sumuporta at nagsikap na ibangon at panatilihin ang org na to.
**crap bakit tagalog ever ako!?> Dahil Filipiniana ang theme kagab ng awards, at sa mas conducive na venue ginanap/
02.27.08 hindi ko malilimutan ang gabing ito. At eto rin ang gabi kung saan after 2 years din of undying support, eh nanalo si Michael Manguerra for St. John Baptist De La Salle Excellence for leadership. Naiyak din ako. I remember the days na sobrang discouraged sya na tumakbo sa CSO dahil he felt hindi nya nagawa yung best nya, but I had to cheer him up and encouaged him to do. I remember even saying this in mortal words:
Alam mo, kung hindi rn lang ikaw ang presidente ko, hindi ako tatakbong secretary.
And now this. Thank you Lord dhil nung una akala ko February will always be the worst month for me, pero right before this month ends, you have blessed me with these victories.
It's really great to see all your efforts come into play. And before I slept that night, muli kong tiningnan yung injection ballpen na binigay sa kin ni Mike, March 27, 2006. HANGGANG NGAYON TINATAGO KO PA RIN kahit wala syang silbi ni katiting. The sentimental side of me speaks indeliberately.
Congrats Garet, and Mike.
Last night, nakausap ko rin si Strawberry, ang anak namin ni... *toot* then she told me:
Mom, thanks sa long hour chat natin. Thank you because you are helping me to construct my thoughts for the organization. I know my efforts are not recognized outside the organization, but you know how i strive to improve. And sabi nga there's Someone up there who recognizes all our efforts. Thanks talaga mom, love ko kau ni dada. Di kayo (members ng) Lasallian Speech Club pero you help me a lot. Hay. Kaiyak, kakatouch. Nyt nyt.
...Nakakataba ng puso makausap ang mga mentors like you and Sir Prado. Sana you'll pray for me to make good decisions for the organization. I badly needed prayers. Thanks for making me feel that I am capableto run the organization. Nagtext din me kay dada now, thank you text. Yan makakatulog na ako ng maaius.
I am really happy hearing these words from the people I have always supported. Now it hit me that I've messed quite a lot during my student leader days. I've been the black sheep of my CSO family but then I thought, if I'm not part of that family, who would have taken my place.
Given the chance rewind the past three years of my life, I'D STILL SAY YES TO STUDENT LEADERSHIP and sabi nga this time I'll be sweeter meaning, I'd definitely give it all.
O di ba. nagsalo salo kami sa pizza, graham, blockbuster chocolate at tempura! Salamat sa mga sponsors! Good thing dahil nobody was left out although talagang drained ang aming current president na si Garet. Nameet ko na rin ang incoming president, and I'm glad to see a familiar face kasi scholar din sya like me.
DK, HINDI IKAW ANG PINIPIKTYURAN!! SI MIKE po yung nasa likod =)
yan po ang incoming cso eb. 
Announcement to my Loko Po Family: Ang next activity natin ay SPLASH: Swimming Para Lokopo Active Saka Healthy!
